Saturday, June 14, 2003
having bottled up feelings really sux.. sigh.. actually.. smtimes puking all ya thots and feelings out can really make u feel much betta.. just like i din dare to tell someone some stuff in fear tt she wld b devastated or upset n keep brooding over it... n when i finally cldn't take it anymore n poured evrythng out, she din react as violently as i thot she wld... so mayb some things aren't as bad as u think they wld b.. u cant assume evrythng.. u cant assume how a person will react after u've told him/her some stuff, u cant assume things will or will not turn out the way u want them to, u cant assume tt evry other person knows exactly how u feel, u cant assume tt evryone knows evrythng abt u, u cant assume tt evryone whom u meet wld gladly accept u, u cant assume tt evryone will change or remain the same, u cant assume tt evryone will remember, u cant assume tt he wld reciprocate, u cant assume tt he won't....
but most ppl wont have the guts to find out... they rather assume n live in their own alternate universe.. really admire those courageous ppl out there who dare to speak their mind wheneva, whereva n in wateva situations...
the two-day Singapore Youth Dialogue at Fort Canning Park is finally over.. it was rather amazing tt i cld survive two whole days of talks, discussions n forums. i cant deny tt it was quite interesting at certain pts, but still, some of the talks really stoned me... but the forum with the Minister was rather engaging n informative though... my gosh.. just saw myself on tv... luckily i was paying attention...
Friday, June 13, 2003
it sux when misunderstandings happen.. n its also hard to clear things up.. esp when u're not sure whether the other party really misunderstood smthng n u cant really ask.. it sux even more when one or both parties do not even noe tt there actually exists a bloody misunderstanding, miscommunication.. sighz.. its always betta to b frank n straight to the pt, esp when u wanna find out smthng real impt frm someone, smthng tt u cant screew up.. or else it'll b the end of a relationship... just cos of a stupid puny mistake.. but tt tiny mistake can really cause massive destruction.. like wth... shldn't b so blur.. shld always b sure of things b4 u jump into conclusions.. n esp when tt fact is so darn impt tt once u misunderstand it, its all over... wth.. i think i'm repeating my pts.. but oh well.....
hmmmmmmm..... n when u wanna tell someone smthng badly.. just do it.. or else it'll b too late.. n all tt'll b left will onlie b regrets n wat-if's.... n if u're not sure if u shld do it.. i guess u shld.. cos onlie when u really say wat u wanna say, will u get an answer.. and u wont noe the answer until u really ask.. u may b afraid tt the answer's not the one tt u wanna hear, but if u don ask, u will neva eva noe wod the blardie answer is! n u'll keep wondering to urself n tt's a really sucky feeling... it really takes alot of courage to take tt one step forward. But once u've braved it all n finally take tt most difficult step, u'll b rewarded with a burden off ya back.. but most ppl fail to do tt... i think.... mayb its some kinda fear of accepting smthng tt u're not ready to accept...
sighz.. don really noe wat i'm talking abt.. but oh well.. there i go again.. rambling on n on n on n on......
Tuesday, June 10, 2003
sighz.. lev left n i cldn't send her off! argh.. i'm missing tt gal... looking forward to dec when she'll b bac to visit... my hols r not starting out gd... have been slacking.. onlie flipped thru a little econs.. shit. i'm officially screwed. anyway. on a happier note.. watched Nemo today! hee~ its darn farnie. laughed till i teared.. haha. n there's this really nice song ya noe.. finally downloaded it today.. n i was searching high n low for its lyrics n i saw it on lev's blog!! wah.. its been on repeat mode on my comp since 10pm [ok.. its not tt long ago..] heh... but the version tt i hear on radio's nicer though.... :(
We use to go for coffee and we use to go to talk,
Remember times we use to share and soon they'll all be gone
Sunny days and summertime wont be the same again,
You've gone away, not fade away
There's no telling when...
Things will be the same,
You're gone and i'm here to stay
I'm going away,
My feeling will not change
Friends forever, Give or Take
First day at school walked into class,
To all those staring eyes
They looked at me so differently, I can't imagine why
I had to leave my home and friends, to come to this place
Things are strange, i feel the pain, i do not feel the same
Things will not change, things will not change and still we'll feel the same...